My name is Tsion Carnielli, 16, and I am sophomore in high school in NYC. I was born in Ethiopia and was adopted as a young child into an Italian family. These two poems are part of a longer series that I wrote about a girl in the hospital who only has a month to live. She keeps seeing a guardian angel, who is watching over her, but she also sees her best friend, who is also the girl next door. The series switches between the point of view of the girl in the hospital and the best friend (girl next door). I have chosen these two poems because I think that they capture the essence of the series and the struggles of the girl in the hospital.
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Past and Future
And so she let herself slip away, Away from the world she knew,
Towards something different.
As long as she remembered,
Nothing could be better than her, Nothing could be better than the girl next door.
And nothing could be worse.
Nothing could be worse than leaving her, The girl next door.
She knew there was no going back, She knew there was nothing else she could have done.
There was no way to know.
What was beyond that light.
That sweet golden light.
The promises of the future,
So pure and innocent.
Dark and brutal.
Throw It All Away
So this is how she would end.
Alone and scared?
Or satisfied and relieved?
She definitely didn’t know.
Her and her messed up heart.
Her and the heart that doesn’t feel. Had she lived, thrived?
She wished she could’ve lived. She knew she couldn’t thrive.
She felt as if she had thrown everything away.
Every opportunity she could have had, Every opportunity she did have.
She had done nothing,
With what little she had been allowed. She had done nothing.
– Tsion Carnielli